howdy!!
+-14 months has passes since the last time i updated this blog.
so let me give some brief review of what has happened in these past months.
(disclaimer: it’s not an happy nor heart warming post, instead it’s a post with lot of negative emotions)
first is about job hunting.
i was busy with the job hunting stuffs, sending application to here and there, going for companies seminar, taking tests and interviews and keep receiving rejection letters.
and yeah, i’m still jobless at this time. during the job hunting process, i learnt that becoming a white collar worker in Japan is not my target. i don’t feel myself suitable to Japanese work ethics and atmospheres. that’s why i started to thinking that going home to Indonesia might be an option to me. and because i haven’t been home for 2.5 years, the desire for going back home is only getting stronger and stronger. but it should be noted that i LOVE to live in Japan. it just i don’t think i am able to stay and work as a white collar worker here. this conclusion leads me to think about looking for part-time job at local bakery, and enjoying what i love the most while keep staying in Japan. but as a result, this thought made me lost my motivation to finish my study. i mean, what would a M.Eng title mean for a baker?
second is about love.
to make it short, i ‘d like to say that i have found “the one”. but unfortunately, it seems that i am not “the one” to her. i won’t write in detail in this post for now, maybe i should write another post dedicated solely in this topic.
third is about human relationship.
in these past months, i feel that i am becoming colder and colder toward my friends. i don’t know why, but sometime i keep on avoiding some of them. even some of my closest friends. i’d like to apologize to you, who feels being ignored by me. i’m so sorry because i don’t really understand what’s happened within me at this time. but i can be certain that i have a lot of good and caring friends around me.
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Glad to get some update from you, though we live under the same roof, sometime is just hard to ask. I guess we are both struggle to find out what we want to do with our life at the moment, and faced a lot of bump on the way. And I’m just not the one who like to start a conversation. :p
Anyway, I think that you should go for what you like the most in your life, you will finally find one, be it in Japan, Indonesia or any part of the world. Keep up the spirit!!! The same for your love one
All the best!!
>BH
arigatou!! maa, i understand it. i also not the type who like to start conversation.
for me, at this time i really lost now, not sure what to do.
but i know i will survive in some ways or another.
yeah, will it be in japan or another country, i’ll do what i like, so i won’t regret it in the future.
wish u all the best for the new job next year. hope it turns to be the best for u.
for the love one, almost no hope i think. but i’m not giving up easily. btw never hear anything about this topic from you. no interesting story?